Cigarette Daydreams

Cigarette Daydreams

I threw your cigarettes away.

I don’t want to see you suffer.

Your suffering hurts me as much as it hurts you.

Perhaps more.

It poisons me how you love

these nicotine sticks 

more than you love me.

When I look at you I see

laughter in the dark.

When you look at me 

all you see is

a heart of wine 

wrapped in vines made of ivory skin. 

We have so little time left together

but some much time left apart. 

Why do we keep playing these games?

I threw your cigarettes away.

You found them deep inside a black bag. 

You left me that day

and I was glad you finally left.